it was the summer of 2002. nagkaroonako ng problema sa letseng dorm na yan(molave) kasi ayaw akong tanggapin forwhatever reason...nasa isip ko, kung hindi molave, thenwala nang iba (bakit? kasi akala kodun sya titira, syempre dapatmagkasama kami)... but then, hindinaman pala sya magdodorm eh (kasi ewanko, hindi ata pang molave angrecommendation nya *wink!*wink!*)sa area 2 ako tumira, sya sa somewhereout there. heheh...we still had our dates (secret datesat sm north), and believe it or not,we even went to UST to attend mass onesunday. hah! who said i wasn'treligious? wala lang, gusto lang naminma-bless ni God ang friendship namin.pag asa sm north kami and feelingnamin na baka me makakilala sa amin,we'd eat at separate tables, but stillclose enough to see each other (ANDLAUGH AT each other's acting...)May 2002. we went to Sm Megamall.. unung time na magkasamang magkasamatalaga kami, the whole day.kagagalingko lang ata sa Batangas nun, at usapanna namin na sa Megamall ako bababa. Iwon't forget that day. He bought me myfirst FHM mag (joyce Jimenez on thecover), para naman daw maging barakoako.. naging avid fan tuloy ako ng fhm.yun ata ung day na napagalitan akonung landlady nung tinitirhan kongboarding haus dahil gabi na akoumuwi.. basta palagi ako ginagabi kasinga, dumadalas ang dates namin..SECOND YEAR COLLEGE.lumipat ako ng tinutuluyang bahay sakrus na ligas. dun, halos ako na langang nakatira kasi dumarating lang ungme ari ng umaga, umaalis na rin sahapon. me isang boarder noon, meroommate din ako (ugh, i remember thatone, he's kinda burara andmabantot..), but then, mas madalaswala tong mga taong to sa bahay untildumating ung time na umalis na ngasila at ako na lang ang nakatira sabahay..sya naman, naging busy sa org nya. (namadalas ay cause of pagiging latenya).. ako naman naging busy sa mgafriends, pag me nag-aya, sumasama.siguro kasi nangungulila ako sa kanya,kaya ibinuhos ko na lang sa friends koung time ko. me mga coquettes dinpamisan minsan, hehehe..then i found out that he has agirlfriend. (so that's why he's busy)..nag-away kami because of this. andthen one night (swerte nya, kakaalislang ng mga barkada kong madalas akongpinupuntahan sa bahay), dumating angkabarkada nyang si *****. nagulat akokasi alam nung tao kung saan akonakatira, and pumunta sya dun bcozmy 'friend' (naks, parang mariel ah)wants to say sorry.at inamin sa kanya ng barkada nya angtungkol sa amin (na lalo ko pangikinagulat), at hindi man daw syapabor sa nangyayari sa amin -tinutulungan lang daw nya ang barkadanya dahil may utang na loob siya dito,na ung gf raw ay front lang, na lovepa rin daw ako ng barkada nya, etc,etc (hindi ko na inintindi becausenaparanoid na ako,nashock at kung anoano pa).sa madaling salita, pinauwi ko na langung barkada nya na walang nangyaringmaayos na usapan.ala una ata ng madaling arawnangalampag ang magaling na lalake sagate ng bahay, he was very drunk andit's as if he wants to wake everyonein the neighborhood...i had no choice. i let him in..he said sorry. he cried. and he sang..namputsa, eto ang hindi ko na kinaya,naiyak na rin ako. we ended up makinglove.. and this time, he was on top..that was one of the greatest sex wehad. hehehe..it was violent, pssionateand very orgasmic... hahaha...and since i live alone, he'd comeeverytime walang 'asungot' (sorryfriends, yan tawag nya senyo), most ofthe time midnight or madaling araw..hindi na kami masyadong lumalabas(kasi pagod sa gabi, hahaha)..and we were happy...

..and we were happy.. until that time when i found out that aside from his girlfriend, meron pa palang isang babae na humahabol habol sa kanya (na laging nagtetext, nangungulit, etc.,) - so you see hindi panget ang 'friend' ko, ok? anyway, this girl is so malandi that she'll do everything just to have my man in her bed. and guess what, when i found out about her, my 'beau' said that there were times that he thought he'd give in but then, naisip nya na hindi lng isa ang pagtataksilan nya kundi dalawa.. naisip ko naman, ano ang meron ang babaeng ito at kahit papano ay natetempt ang pihikang panlasa ng aking asawa? well, dahil friends sila sa letseng org na yan (na hindi lang sa UP matatagpuan),i decided to join him on one of their 'meetings sa org'. and i found out that the girl was hot indeed.. she's sexy, and pretty, nejo nei pagka cono (malamang kasi sa katips nakatira eh).. well, ipinakilala ako ng bf ko sa kanya bilang friend nya, and i couldn't believe what happened.. i saw her flirting with him. sobrang in your face ang pagkamalandi nya,, kulang na lang isalpak nya boobs nya sa ilong ni ******.. at obvious namang na turn on ang mokong.. after that incident, napagkukuwentuhan tuloy naming madalas ung girl at ung mga ginagawa nito maikama lang asawa ko. at ang katangahan ko naman, nasabi ko tuloy na "hindi ako papayag kung hindi ako kasali". and one night, inilabas nya ako at isinama sa isang very posh na condo dun sa katips, at ayun,andun ung hitad na babae.. and believe it or not, right then and there, i fucked a girl. hahaha... i never thought i could do that... all for the love of him... and little did i know that after that incident, magsisimula na palang magdeteriorate ang relationship namin.. the stupid girl-syempre, hindi sya papayag na hanggang dun lang sya sa asawa ko... marami pang sumunod na nagyari sa kanila... and he broke up with his gf at the time for this girl.. (hindi kami nagbreak... but then, dahil inuubos na ni malandi ung oras at energy ni ******, wala na natitira for me..) at nagsimula na akong ma depress at magpabaya sa acads... (pero kami pa rin.. nagkikita pa rin kami... umuuwi pa rin sya sa bahay minsan, we talk... about him... about me... about the girl... about us... about our 'future' and our 'dreams'...) hanggang sa magkandaletse letse na acads ko (at pati rin naman sa kanya...) i was forced to stop studying at UP. he didn't like the idea and said that he'd break up with the girl wag lang ako umalis.. but my parents have decided... hindi ko rin naman mapipilit na magstay pa sa UP kasi nga isa na akong malaking failure... he broke up with the girl (malandi naman kasi talaga ung babae eh, madami pang reserba)... we communicated thru text, phone calls and ym.... bumalik pa ako ng ilang beses nung summer, para lang makipagkita, at ienjoy ang company ng isa't isa.... hanggang sa marealize namin nung august 2003 na hindi na namin pedeng ipagpatuloy... una kasi malayo kami sa isa't isa... mahirap... magastos... ikalawa kasi baka mapabayaan na naman namin ang studies namin.... ikatlo, naintindihan namin pareho na mas mabuti kung magiging magkaibigan na lang kami... (with benefits, of course...)